Nana Episode | 5

Sitting here in the quiet dimness, Ren’s breathing is the only anchor I have left. He is asleep, dreaming of a future in Tokyo that doesn't strictly have a carved-out space for me—not the real me. He asked me to go with him. It would be so easy to say yes. I could pack my bags, board that train, and live in his shadow. I could be the doting girlfriend waiting in a cramped apartment while he lives out his rock-and-roll fantasies with Trapnest.

What are you aiming for (angsty, romantic, or analytical)? NANA Episode 5

The bed is warm, but my chest feels like ice. I memorize the curve of his shoulder in the dark, knowing this might be the last time I get to hold him like this. Sitting here in the quiet dimness, Ren’s breathing

Nobu, Yasu, and the rest of the Blast boys... they are counting on me. I am their frontwoman. If I abandon them for a comfortable life as a housewife in Tokyo, I’m killing the only part of myself that feels truly alive. I won't do it. I can't. It would be so easy to say yes

But the mere thought of it makes me want to scream until my throat bleeds.